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AaronBenjamin
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Well for me it is not really an obsession since my hormones level is very low anyways (due to medications I think) however, once I start looking at that kind of stuff I kind of get sucked into it, since I still do have some hormones and sometimes I get a bit bored since my life is not so active sometimes etc.

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It seems to make you uncomfortable, if something doesn't feel right to us, then it isn't. There must be other Sites you can check out, or other things to occupy you ,other than being on-line. We're all healthier if we have varied interests.


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It makes me feel uncomfortable because it may be in conflict with the Torah, which does not permit the spilling of seed, and does not encourage immodest behavior. On the other hand, this is partially about keeping my evil inclination alive since when I don't do these kind of things, I feel like my evil inclination is being negated instead of harnessed and I don't think that is ideal either. Maybe in my circumstances it is my most preferable option. But that is a bit difficult. I don't have too many things to do with my time. During the day I am busy with my mom and listening to the radio from Israel with her etc. however at night when I come home, I have occasional TV shows I watch, such as hockey games, news, and a few other shows sometimes. Aside from that my main interest is my computer since I find it difficult to read books unfortunately, ever since I am on the psychiatric medications. I believe there may be a connection there.

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Re: do not murder
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Do you feel that there may be a value in keeping the evil inclination alive so to speak, or does this just sound like foolishness?

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I don't think there is any value in keeping evil inclinations alive.


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I hear what you are saying. If we are talking about some negative aspects of the evil inclination such as inappropriate cruelty, terrorism, murder etc. then I would agree with you. However, in the Torah the sexual drive is sometimes also called the evil inclination if I am not mistaken. This is what I was referring to. Ideally the Torah encourages people to make their sexual drive holy through marriage and following the laws of the Torah etc. but for someone in my circumstances, I am struggling with the idea of negating the sexual drive entirely even though the Torah encourages modesty etc.

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Having a sexual drive is normal, not evil. Maybe someone else has another view to share with you.


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I don't believe the Torah says that having a sexual drive is evil. However when a person uses the sexual drive in ways that go against the will of G*d then that is called part of the evil inclination. Ultimately the sexual drive is meant to be a holy thing as marriage in the Torah is called Kedushin, which shares the same root as kedusha - holiness. I hope that one day I will be more healthy in all ways and that hopefully I will find my soul mate to marry, possibly after the Messiah comes.

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I feel a bit caught in the middle since on the one hand I don't really want to and it is difficult to just negate the sexual drive entirely, on the other hand my only expressions for it that are available to me right now seem to be forbidden by the Torah and considered a serious transgression, so it makes me feel guilty etc.

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Re: do not murder
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It seems from Isaiah that there is a value in being a "eunuch" perhaps as the verses state:
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56:3 Neither let the son of the stranger, that hath joined himself to the LORD, speak, saying, The LORD hath utterly separated me from his people: neither let the eunuch say, Behold, I am a dry tree.

56:4 For thus saith the LORD unto the eunuchs that keep my sabbaths, and choose the things that please me, and take hold of my covenant; 56:5 Even unto them will I give in mine house and within my walls a place and a name better than of sons and of daughters: I will give them an everlasting name, that shall not be cut off.
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there was a time when those verses may have described me possibly since I was like a eunich (not married) and guarding my modesty properly and keeping the Sabbath etc. but with time and since I have been on the medications for a while, my Judaism has deteriorated and I no longer keep the Sabbath properly for example and my modesty has become on a lower level as well.

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Re: do not murder
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I guess this provides another reason to look forward to the coming of the Messiah and the redemption since then all problems will be fixed including this one (problems with modesty etc.) and in the meanwhile I do feel like it may be beyond my ability to do everything properly in my current circumstances and I hope G*d will have mercy, understanding and ahavat chinam (unconditional love) for me among all of Israel and the Bnai Noah and redeem us soon with love.

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Edited by AaronBenjamin on 12/23/14 09:48 PM.




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Re: do not murder
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I just found out tonight that my dad has prostatitis. I am wondering if G*d may want me to be more modest and this may be a message to me as well. I don't want my dad to suffer because of my actions. I am asking a Rabbi with experience for advice about it.

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Re: do not murder
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I wouldn't think his condition has anything to do with you or your actions. You could how ever look into natural ways to reduce inflammation. Alkalising the body is key to reducing inflammation.

Most of us eat an incredibly acidic diet, this in turn makes it hard for our bodies to maintain health. Eating lots of green vegetables and using Himalayan Salt, help to rebalance this acidity.

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Re: do not murder
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Thank you. I think they are trying antibiotics. There is a teaching of Rabbi Israel Baal Shem Tov that from everything a person sees or hears they ought to learn a lesson in their service of Hashem (G*d). Also, the same Baal Shem Tov taught that everything is divine providence, even the movement of a leaf as it falls from a tree etc. so this is part of the reason that I thought that maybe G*d is sending me a message in all of this as well.

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Edited by AaronBenjamin on 12/30/14 01:49 AM.




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