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Ryguysabotguy
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twinflame awakening ptsd depression real or
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Sup Guys

So im an analytical [censored], and Ive done way too much reading and my head is just lost and blown.

So story goes me and this chick, I split with her and regretretted it since, and my feelings somehow have increased for her over time and despite distance.

Over 3 years we tried getting back together or reconnecting but just bad timing. One is in a relationship, or moved, or whatever.

I just got out of a super abusive relationship that I eventually fell into because lost of her.
She fell into an abusive relationship, so it seems, due to lost of me.

One night she called me crying, and I was in so much suffering at that point. Severe depressions, life has been worst ever, Ive been worst ever, everything worst it has ever been. Like everything everything. And i was in so much pain from basically abuse that led me here, that when she called crying, I had a fuckin ptsd attack that she would suffer the pain i was in when i realized or presume that she was/is in an abusive relationship (I'm calling it a ptsd attack - it would make sense)

I saw all kinds of love karma relationships abusive relationship signs from my past, to her present relationship. And much more.
I saw signs that she was my "one". Found all kinds of "inner truths" and "my path" and "listen to inner self type things"

I understand the mind can play games. See or believe what it wants that isn't.

I mean I saw like crazy signs. Like "signs of the universe" galore. N i still get them. I also again was in severe depression. ptsd-episodes. -doing a little drug use. -head not quite right

There is however quite a bit of unexplainable stuff, events, coincidences, in our relationship or pertain to its almost mind blowing.

Its hard for me to say whether she's my twinflme. I wanna say yes. I wanna say she knows. At the same time, I wanna say this concept is crazy. No way. Im on the fence. N so then how would this one relate to manifesting? And if she is my twin flame, now what?

So whats this board's consensus??

Edited by Ryguysabotguy on 11/03/14 03:56 AM.




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Cheeneka
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11/03/14 01:29 PM


Re: twinflame awakening ptsd depression real or
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HI,

Let me tell you what I know about twinflame love. At the first meeting there is an OBE and you both see each other without ego. It is the most amazing experience ever, you both feel like just one person, you cannot tell where one starts and the other ends. There is absolutely no doubt in your mind or theirs about what has just happened.

After this meeting comes the awakening, the ephinay every chakra that exists is awakened with pure love, you can feel pure love pumping through your veins. Then you think you have lost your mind because you become a psychic sponge, as twinflame is soul love, you then find out that you can both communicate with each other by telepathy, so you can never again know for sure which thoughts are yours and which is theirs.

The shock to your mind and your body is exactly like the symptoms of PTSD. You don't really believe that any of it is possible. Your energy vibrates at a higher level and you get what I call information overload, because your vibrations are vibrating at a higher rate everything in your mind speeds up and your feel like you are having a psychotic episode.

What happens then is shocking, here you are feeling supernatural love and you discover one twin is not ready. Divine timing becomes the enemy because all you can do is wait, for years sometimes until they are finally ready to even talk about what happened between the two of you.

I hope this brings some clarity to your questions.

LOve cheeneka x


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Ryguysabotguy
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Re: twinflame awakening ptsd depression real or
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We met 3 years ago and yes we are extremely alike

This experience happened however over Facebook when i realized she was in an abusive relationship n i just came out of.

Yes i went psychotic. I had information overload. I had pure love feeling.

How do I know if what I experienced was an awakening of my twin flame though?

It seems so real. Or was or does. but doesn't.
Very lost.




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Cheeneka
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11/04/14 07:48 AM


Re: twinflame awakening ptsd depression real or
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Hi,

You know it is an awakening because your heart literally glows with love. Your whole being is literally changed, it feels like you are in a state of grace, but it makes you very vulnerable in this ego world we live in.

Believe me if you had an awakening and it was twinflame, you would have no doubt, whatsoever.
It is a soul union, not a people union. When the twin sends you love, you can feel your whole being illuminating and you think your heart is going to burst with love.

Twinflames when they are apart can communicate with each other by telepathy. Sure! you do think you are crazy to begin with, it's like talking to yourself with someone else answering

This is how guides, spirit and angels communicate with us, through our thoughts. Telepathy is the language of soul. If you can communicate with her by telepathy then there can be no doubt who she is.

LOve cheeneka x


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I was blissful in love and extacy and euphoria like I never been in my life, like no drug could ever get me that so filled with love. It lasted about 3 days.
I did tell me girl my experience n asked if she felt something as well, as well as she was my soulmate and my "one" , n then i got super analytical n weird, n just thrilled bizarre, ancy, a lot of things.
she freaked out. got upset and put me down.

in addiction with doing so ^ for yelling at her friends n family. N told me shed never want to talk or see me again

for 3 years this was the ONLY negative thing we ever had between us, besides some sourness on both sides but nothing serious after our initial break up 3 years back.

After she told me that i went nutso, tears of joy, just the fact I ever met her n had such love, tears of sorrow, tears n confusion of how u could waste such an amazing n phenomenon n incredibly rare true love,

Then depression n tears for months. super bizarre. got super psychotic like lightly

Its wierd. I felt something i never felt before and i swear it sounded like a cannon went off
(that was 11pm) when I was on her way to her house freaking out about her having the slightest bit of suffer (tears are what started this 1-2month experience) (2-3days before "awakening) (2-3 psychotic) (2-3 n now coming out of severe severe depression)

never had i had such dramatic, extrmemed, or widened feelings. like ever ever ever ever ever.

in the morning around 9am she unblocked me n strangely changed her FB profile pic back to the one when we first dated (for the first time in 3 years) n i got a feeling she knew she was mine.
n that she experienced it, n knew.
n then i messaged her all excited telling her ur my one! r u excited! i found u! all kinds of [censored] n thats the non bizarre stuff,
Strangely again she didn't respond for like 8 hours.
SHes never done that, we both r super prompt.

I read the guy knows first, then the girl.

Before this, she was "scared" to try again because the feelings were so real she was scared to loose me n what we had n those feelings again

n i mentioned that when she put me down
n she flipped out like flipped a bitch or flipped cunt
(u kno when girls know ur right, but can't n won't ever admit it n then upset that ur right n its known that u r, n then they deny it, n put u down, n then don't talk to u)

What do u think??
do u think this all sounds like twin flame awaking?
i mean id love to give you more (the full story experience) details whatever, to make a better judgement?? or? i mean i almost just teared writing this last paragraph

i definitely went super super obsessive
I read that^ n analytical n lost n bizarre was the chaser

she's been a runner somewhat coming n leaving for quite awhile
do u think she was "awakened" ..felt "something"
n she's the twin flame runner?

I read theres always always awlasy a runner.

I mean i thought this girl was the "one" before all this crap.

It was 7 months b4 this i told her id wait for her (for her current relationship end) 1-2 years.
she was upset i didn't wait for her last time, n basically said she moved on bcuz what did i expect for her to just sit n wait for me? n i said no, n thats ok, but don't worry i will for you

I mean just drawned to her like gravity.
only girl i ever truly pursued, n just like phenomenon force to just sweep sweeep her off her feet 24/7

theres other unexplainable [censored] - similar dreams, both "as if something told me to", super similar inner person, other [censored]

but i understand the mind can be deceiving and see, hear, believe, whatever things that aren't, including what it wishes or you allow it to reach if you let it. also pain, depression, ptsd causes the brain to act different, deceive oneself

i mean my heart says yes.
she is. she knows. she's my truelove as well as/or is flame. other half..

but I'm a hopeless romantic n gooey as [censored] inside as -for male purposes n ego n not too look like a a baby - as bad fuckin ass as i am

n extra heartbroken, n other things.
basically saying i understand the brain isn't always correct nor the heart, and other factors have effects on their saying as well.

Ive always told myself n her, as well as others to always follow your heart. Don't confuse what you already kno n want n feel with ur head. Overthink, make complicated, go off your path or loose opportunities or whatever like

but ^^I can't help it on this one.
Super back n forth on it.

Super knew she is my one. then don't, then she totally is.

This chick has made me do, feel, act, think, the likes, in many ways i never have before, by self let alone standing alone from other girls

But lol theres way more your missing,

But what are you honest thoughts so far if you wouldd please???



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Cheeneka
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11/04/14 10:46 AM


Re: twinflame awakening ptsd depression real or
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HI

I want to help you if I can but I think you really need to reread my previous posts to you.

You may have skimmed over them but if you read them and really let them resonate with you. Then you will find the answer inside yourself, listen to your own heart and soul, ask the question but then make sure you listen for the answer.

I agree that the guy always knows first and that there is always a runner, usually the male!!

Does your heart glow with love can you feel yourself illuminated like being touched by an angel? when she is communicating with you or in your presence.

It is divine love, soul love and as I have said before if she is your twin then nothing on this earth will prevent what is supposed to happen, the higher purpose.

In hurting each other each twin brings out the faults of the other, like a mirror. It shows us the parts of us that we need to work on and heal. In this way, both grow spiritually at the same time.

LOve cheeneka x


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Ryguysabotguy
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Re: twinflame awakening ptsd depression real or
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not even,

just thinking of her.

i answered myself n i know the answer

its just seems so surreal. besides other things


for sure. thank you for your response, time, insight all that, it is very n truly appreciated,

lol you have any advice or insight pertaining to this or just spirtualllity in general or?

figured couldn't hurt to ask, not to be froogle or anything,


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Cheeneka
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HI

I think you are very aware and you know more than you think you do, I just think you need to spend time alone and in silence and listen to your inner thoughts for a while.

Finding out the other gifts that we have is a great distraction when we are in pain.

You will come back here in a little while and you will be teaching us

LOve cheeneka x


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Ryguysabotguy
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too away n too brilliant sometimes lol

already do the yoga n pilates n heavy liftin! running, cuzi

any spiritual specific tips guidance activities i dunno anything ud recommend?

ya distraction is key i figured that one out lol


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Cheeneka
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Hi,

Time alone and silence is your friend not your enemy.

If you can't turn off the busy mind, start using your imagination.

Imagine what you think is beautiful and with practice you will be able to 'just be'

You need to first find yourself before someone else can find you.

LOve cheeneka x


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ya i lost myself when i fell into severe depression
i also lost everything, everyone, very rough times, worst ever been/was in all aspects, n still fighting my way out.

n i have serious serious doubts again.
big time.

I feel like twin flames now are hocus pocus adult fairly tale for ones who can't let go or move forward now,
what would you have to say to that?
think you would agree.

I think everyone is your soulmate. everyone is your twin flame. Everyone is your "one"

one for all all for one, we are one, one love, etc.


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Cheeneka
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HI

Yes soul is omnipresence not individual.


LOve cheeneka x


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Ryguysabotguy
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^totallies

but u kno what, i retract my last statement
she is infinitively sure my twin flame

its when i get down n/or "off the right path" that become adversary

ding ding ding


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