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07/01/10 10:51 AM

I Believe I Found My Soulmate...
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Hello everyone. I'm new to the forums. I read through some topics and I was compelled to join, in hopes that you could help me work something out.

Some may understand, some may not. I hope that you do.

I've known her my whole life. We went to the same elementary and high school together, but never really hung out or spent time with each other until our later college years.

This was before either of us really understood spirituality. But still, I felt a strong bond to her. She understands me like no one else does, and vice versa. We have both always had some very real calming effects on one another.

It wasn't until last summer when we both attended our first Phish show that we began to develop an understanding of our spirituality. We grew and experienced this together. Still, I was too shy to make any moves... mostly because I honestly didn't know how. I've always been that way. But we continued to relentlessly spend time together.

This summer, we hit it off and attended a couple of shows together. She had some stones with her, and she let me hang on to one of them during the first show. I felt a very strong attachment to this stone. Loved it.

I gave it back to her near the end. Later that evening when I asked her if I could hold it again, she had lost it. Very disappointing.

A week later, we were due to hit our next show. During that time span, we went to the bars together, and she told me she had something to tell me. I asked her to tell me, and she said not yet, but soon.

When we got to the show, they opened up with a song that neither of us knew. We tried to figure it out, but decided instead to just listen and enjoy, oblivious to the lyrics. Keep this in mind for later.

During the 2nd set of our very next show, she tapped me on the shoulder and said I have something for you. She held out a clenched fist and opened it, revealing the stone that she led me to believe she lost.

At that moment, we looked at each other and connected in ways that I never thought were possible. I told her how amazing I thought she was and she and I both couldn't stop smiling. It was the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me.

She approached me and we embraced for seemingly forever. She then told me that she knew. She said she was on the same page. I asked her... same page? And she nodded and said same page. "I can feel it too. I've known. I've always known."

When we first planned this show, she was unsure as to whether or not she could go. One day, she texted me and said, "I CAN GO!." I replied by saying, "I'm so happy you're coming. "

She told me that night how happy that made her, and how good I made her feel.

The rest of that show was euphoric for both of us.

After the show, we had a long drive home. We decided to stop at a gas station to stretch our legs before we began our journey. The other two we were with hustled inside. I held her up.

While I was driving to the station, the stone - with the slightest and most minuscule pressure - broke perfectly in half.

I opened my hand and showed her, and we each took a half. She very nearly started to cry.

When we arrived home, we all slept at a friend's house.

The next morning, we had a conversation about the previous night. Held hands, looked at our stones, smiled... and we conversed about what it was. The more we spoke, the more I realized that we weren't on the same page as I had thought.

She has a boyfriend (which I knew about... it was no secret)... much older than the both of us, who doesn't understand a thing about this lifestyle.

She mentioned that we'll always be there for each other and rattled off some things that made me realized she thought of it as a friendship.

I asked her what she would say if I said I wanted it to be more. She told me that she believes we get certain fulfillments from certain people, and that the one that she gets from me she can't get from anywhere else, but that she needed the one from her boyfriend as well.

I nodded. We held hands and remained silent. I got up and started to gather my things.

When I had collected everything, she went to hug me goodbye. We held each other, and then I grabbed her hand with the same hand I had my half of the stone in.

Into her ear, I said, "Last night was amazing. But we weren't on the same page. Maybe someday we will." I placed my half of the stone in her hand, turned around and left.

Later that day, I downloaded the show.

As it turns out, the first song of the night was called, "The Connection."

Funny how this universe works, don't you think?

Deep down, I know that she'll realize someday.

Has anyone else experienced a situation where they believed they had found their soulmate, but it took their counterpart some time to realize it?

New to the Understanding

Edited by Enlightened on 07/01/10 10:51 AM.

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07/02/10 08:17 PM

Re: I Believe I Found My Soulmate...
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I figured it out. Thanks anyways!

New to the Understanding

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07/02/10 09:10 PM

Re: I Believe I Found My Soulmate...
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Well, sorry I couldn't have responded sooner...I usually do my responding to posts on my days off as my brain is usually fried during my work week, or my body is overheated from standing in a 105 degree kitchen most of my work day, and I feel soooo exhausted when I get home.
Glad to hear you have it all figured out!

All in all....Welcome to SpiritBoard Enlightened!!

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07/03/10 09:16 AM

Re: I Believe I Found My Soulmate...
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That's okay!

It's amazing how much my life has changed since that night. I'm living on a plane of existence that I never really knew was possible.

I'm really happy to have found a place to talk about this stuff because I've been dying to share the experience but only few that I know really understand.

New to the Understanding

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