|Hello, please help!|
For a few years now, I've been trying to better myself through self enquiry, meditation, conscious awareness, shamanic ceremonies, et cetera.
I've come to believe my progression is stymied by my minds obsession with news, current events, opinion, whose right, whose wrong. It's horrible, I'm attracted to news and opinion websites, but it causes me a large amount of anxiety. It's compulsive, I can't stop myself in the morning, if I don't look, I feel bored. I read during eating, then I am caught up in it for the rest of the day, it sucks the life out of me, massively reducing my working time. I feel diminished because of this. I want out. Really, I want out. But I'm stuck, I don't know what to do, I'm out of ideas, I don't want depression to set in. After four years of attempting to walk down this path I know my meditation practice is still in the beginner stage. I know this is not emotionally or psychologically healthy, I would appreciate some real help. Gin