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Ankhesenamun
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Request for healing, prayers and friendship
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I'm new to this forum and I'm really glad I found it - I just wish I had found it sooner because I was previously on another spiritual forum - and it was a terrible experience because someone I came across on there hurt me terribly.

I then had to find out that the entire forum was run by narcissists, ie abusers, who were running the forum as a front to entrap people to abuse and hurt them! It's disgusting beyond words as there were some really vulnerable people on there!

But as for me, I have been deeply affected by what happened there and I'm struggling to heal as the person who hurt me, attacked me spiritually and he is still doing so. I know how to deal with such things and my strong faith in God, my inner strength and my prayers, will get me through - but, we all need help sometimes and I'm really struggling because first of all, what happened hurt me very much - and secondly, the person who is spiritually attacking me, he dabbles in black magic and he conjures up demons and all that, and he sends negative energy my way. He seems to know what he is doing and he has admitted to worshiping an Ancient Egyptian evil entity ( I won't name the entity here in case that person does ever find his way on this forum - I hope not) and to getting powers from worshiping this entity.

There are reports from Ancient Egypt about people getting special powers that way, and I am a reincarnated Ancient Egyptian from a Royal family, so I do know what this person is conjuring up and what I am dealing with - and it's serious!

Anyone who can help, whether by praying for me or in any other way, or just by being my friend and being there for me - please let me know.

I'm a natural Shaman and highly sensitive Heyoka empath and have always been spiritual so I am here to both learn and look for support but also to help others, to share knowledge, to exchange ideas. It's not been long though that I have discovered that I am a natural Shaman so any guidance would also be much appreciated.

Love & Light to everyone!

Ankh Em Ma'at


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SpiritualDestiny
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Re: Request for healing, prayers and friendship
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I see that your post is already a few months old but I just wanted to chime in, in case you are still around. I am also new to the forum.

I wanted to let you know that this person who you feel is attacking you does not have as much power as he may lead you to believe.

My belief is also that good intentions can travel much further and more effectively than bad or evil ones and that the evil you feel this person is conjuring toward you may be getting too much power from your belief that it can harm you. It in fact cannot.

Try to see this attacking person as a jokester, a fake who is afraid of you and has zero power over you.

Try to see yourself as the powerful and eternal spiritual being that you are and that there is no harm that can come to you.

Wishing you the best and hopefully we can chat sometime.



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Ankhesenamun
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Re: Request for healing, prayers and friendship
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Hi SpiritualDestiny,
thank you for your reply. Yes I'm still around, just not that frequently as this forum doesn't seem to be very busy.

It depends how one looks as it with regards to people being able to conjure up evil towards someone else. I have known a lot of people who did manage to achieve real harm. My cat for example got brutally murdered by my stalker! Another person managed to use the legal system to harm me, and he achieved lasting damage that will forever prevent me from being able to live a normal life. Another one achieved the death of my child. And then there is the lifelong abuse I have suffered, very serious abuse including violation. I could cite many more similar examples. This is all very serious harm!

With all these people, I did believe that they couldn't possibly harm me, that they were just afraid of me, that they didn't have power over me. I didn't give them any power by thinking they could harm me.

Sadly, fact is however that such evil creatures can indeed achieve real harm, and it doesn't help us to convince ourselves that they can't. We have to deal with reality and face reality. The harm that has been done to me throughout my life, and is still being done, means that I of all people cannot live with the head in the sand and convince myself that no one can harm me. Because they have already done so and are continuing to do so.

But with regards to that person, I know what his plans were, I know that he hasn't given up on his plans, and I know that he knows where I am. What matters more though is that he is continuing to chase me, to hunt me down, to claim ownership that he has no right to claim.

I have just survived yet another spiritual battle with him where he tried to force me into being with him. This battle didn't take place in the material world but in the spirit realm, ie I couldn't escape. I tried to get away - to no avail! He kept chasing me, running after me, forcing me to be with him.

I know that this was always his intention. I'm not saying he would do as serious harm as the others did/are doing, but I'm also saying I wouldn't put it past him as I am aware of what he has done in the past to others. Let's just say it's serious!

I wish I knew why he keeps chasing me like that in the spirit realm - though really, deep down, I do know! I just don't know what to do about it!

Best wishes to you too, love & light xx

Ankh Em Ma'at


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Karuppan
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Re: Request for healing, prayers and friendship
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Hi co-traveller

I have encountered some attacks like this earlier in my life and 2 things helped me come out of it. 1) My Guru - she was my maternal aunt too, and that helped a lot - needless to say. Instead of protecting me, she made me face it - face it all out - sent me to war and then protected me enough to make sure I overcome it and learn the right lessons. She had attuned me in Reiki which acted as a force multiplier. 2) I restarted chanting AUM regularly, simplified my diet, took seasalt baths twice a week and started spending more time with plants - all these energized me like never before and I not only countered the negativities but started protecting and helping others too.

It is so difficult to go through what you have gone through and if it were me in your place, I would've simply given up a long time ago. Your fighting spirit is a lesson for me.

The problem always starts with us. How much ever we might deny or be outraged by it, the problem starts with us and always ends with us. Karma. If we remain susceptible to manipulations (at any level of existence) some one or the other will keep manipulating our energies and sucking us dry. So, a resolve to learn the lesson and get over it - is a must. Whatever energy tools you are using, trust them and use it to your fullest - even 24x7 if need be.

Hope this helps Ankhesenamun.

Kayzhee


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Ankhesenamun
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Re: Request for healing, prayers and friendship
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Hi Karuppan,

Thank you for your reply.

I would like to ask you something regarding your belief that the problem starts with us and that we are susceptible to manipulation.

The manipulation that I am experiencing is nothing to do with me being susceptible to it, ie falling for it. How would you deal with this?

For example, my boss is hounding me out of my job with extremely serious false allegations. The allegations are of such extremely serious nature that they have made me permanently unemployable and are causing me other serious consequences.

If I were to fall for this, I would believe what my boss is saying and start believing that these allegations are true and that I am just not aware of what I am doing. This is not the case. I am fully aware that my boss is lying, and over the last year or so I have done everything possible to defend myself. During the course of this, I managed to prove that he was lying, that he is corrupt, has bribed third parties to also provide false statements about me, and I have exposed him for being the unstable and corrupt character that he is.

Despite this, everybody in the company and even the labor union continue to defend him, continue to make it out that I am in the wrong and that his allegations are true - in the face of evidence to the contrary! It is absolutely unreal!

I am expecting my dismissal notice at any moment, and I am now totally unemployable due to the seriousness of his allegations.

Considering that even the labor union defends him and take a stand against me, I am now in a giant whirlwind of having to defend myself against false allegations from all sides, and all my efforts are in vain.

So, as you can see, my boss is highly manipulative - but it's not me that is falling for it, it is that everybody else involved is also a narcissist and therefore defending him and attacking me. It is well known that narcissists, ie abusers/evil people/possessed people, always, ALWAYS defend and support each other.

I'm fully aware of his manipulations and am not falling for it, I am not falling for his mindgames, psychological tricks and other dirty tricks that he has tried to use against me. But still he manages to cause maximum carnage in my life, namely condemning me to a lifetime in destitution as I will never be able to get another job - he has made sure of that.

Or take the guy who brutally murdered my cat, a guy who has been stalking me for the last 17 years. He is conducting a massive smear campaign against me, but by far the worst is of course was the murder of my cat.

I am not falling for his lies, his manipulative ways, his threats. But still he managed to cause extreme carnage, namely murder my beloved cat.

Or take all the people who have physically abused me, which are far too many people to count. It's nothing to do with me falling for their manipulation that they came and attacked me, both physically and sexually. I am simply physically weaker than they were.

Or take my so-called "parents" who committed extreme crimes against me and then stole my inheritance, a considerable fortune, from me, leaving me destitute. Again, it wasn't me falling for manipulation from them - it was simply them carrying out crimes because they could because they were very wealthy and therefore above the law.

With none of these people was it a case of me simply getting them out of my life - this is clearly not possible due to the circumstances, though I can assure you I have tried everything to get rid of my stalker, to expose my boss, and I have not spoken to my so-called "parents" for 30 years.

Or take the guy who simply made false allegations of acts of extreme violence against me - after subjecting me to extreme violence. He got believed, I got arrested, psychologically tortured, slammed with a massive criminal record.

Of course I tried to defend myself, informed the relevant authorities of his fraud and crimes - only to be accuse of lying!

So, again - where is me falling for manipulation? Nowhere because I didn't fall for him, others did - but the damage was done to me.

As you can see now, I am not dealing with a few people merely manipulating me into doing things for them or saying a few mean things. I am dealing with issues on a whole different caliber, things that can only be described as ongoing and relentless satanic attacks.

Any idea how to deal with such satanic attacks of such an extreme magnitude?

Thank you,

Ankhesenamun

Ankh Em Ma'at


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Karuppan
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Hi Ankhesenamun

Thank you for your swift response.

"the problem starts with us and always ends with us" - To add to this, I had also mentioned the word Karma.

Whether we are being susceptible or not, being subject to manipulative forces or not - the pains that we experience are solely ours to live through, learn, and make it better.

The kind and type of attacks that you have faced / that you are facing, is unprecedented for a normal person. I really don't know how you have managed this far and those are life lessons that you could share here with us so that others can also learn to be aware of such dangers - i.e., only if you wish.

Being deceived by parents, friends, colleagues, bosses and the society at large - is too incredible to even conceive of, and maybe only 1 in a million (or even less) might go through the kind of karma you are going through.

When a person hasn't done any harm to anyone in this birth, consciously or otherwise, then why is that person being hounded from all corners, all fronts? Karma could be one of the answers. Whether one believes in it or not, there doesn't seem to be any other answer or solution for this kind of occurrences in life.

Is Karma a solution? Maybe. What happens if we accept Karma as a solution is - it can be changed. However powerful one's current bad / negative Karmas are, the table is all set for it to be changed for the future. How? By changing the current Karmas. So, what is Karma? Action. What action? Action performed through thoughts, words and deeds. Deeds and words are for the world to see. Thoughts are the first and foremost of our Karma. Is it easy? No, it is not for the faint hearted. Faith, by itself, is not for the faint hearted. You, Ankhesenamun, are surely not of a faint heart.

I think I didn't explain clearly in my earlier response, hence these: I am surely not saying that you have been manipulated or that you have succumbed to your surroundings. I apologize if I came across like that. No. I believe you are who you are and that whatever you have gone through / going through are as true as truth can be. You come across a sensible, sensitive yet strong person. You aren't falling for manipulations. What I meant to convey was, when there is trouble all around, the energy gets drained in several ways. Along with bodily and societal disturbances, your energy field is also being continuously assaulted - this will drain your very life force in the long run. This loss of energy (physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, psychic etc) is a result of the manipulations of one's surroundings (which includes one's circumstances in all the senses of the words), by external forces.

How does one go about changing the present? While there are several ways / paths that are available, I know for sure - from experience - that chanting AUM (in the proper way, and not as it might appear to sound by reading the letters A, U and M together) and chanting a short Buddhist chant every day, diligently, have a profound impact on the practitioner. This is called the Lotus Sutra. I stand testimony for these and am willing to share this on a personal conversation if needed.

I do hope and pray that things turn for the better, forever.

Cheers!

Kayzhee


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Ankhesenamun
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Re: Request for healing, prayers and friendship
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Hi Karuppan,

Thank you for your very detailed reply!

What really stands out to me is your statement that the attacks I am facing are unprecedented - that's the one thing I also hear again and again whenever I mention what I am dealing with to someone. I don't tell many people though because I only encounter disbelief that so much could happen to one person.

And I fully agree - it is indeed unprecedented! Sometimes I watch videos on Youtube about abuse, and people tell their stories - and all I can think is, this is completely different from what I have to deal with, other people have maybe had some ex boyfriend saying a few mean things and that's it - nothing compared to my story, and that's not me wanting to belittle what others are going through!

You mention karma. That sounds like what I am facing might be a kind of punishment for past misdeeds, in a previous lifetime maybe. This however is not the case and I don't believe it is for anyone who is being abused - because abusers are evil people, and one is not evil in one lifetime and a decent person in the next. The soul stays the same, it doesn't change from evil to good. To join the evil side is a conscious decision, not something that one just happens to be born with.

To blame it all on karma is also a kind of victim blaming, it's saying "it's all your own fault, you have to pay for what you did". But evil people don't suddenly become innocent victims in their next lifetime.

I've had past life regression, twice in fact, and I know what I did during a previous lifetime. I also have memories of it. I can assure you I did nothing wrong. One of my stalkers however, who committed atrocious crimes and murdered my cat, was already a murderer during my previous lifetime. He murdered then, to get what he wanted - power, money, admiration. He murdered to obtain a very high position in government.

But no karma has come back on him - on the contrary, he has chased me through the centuries and millenia because all this started over 3,000 years ago. With him that is, not with my other abusers, why they have cut in is unknown to me.

Again he has murdered during my current lifetime, again he has a life in wealth, fame (he is a minor celebrity), he has everything one could wish for - family, friends (okay, no real friends, only people who associate with him to gain advantages themselves but to evil people that makes no difference). He has never faced the slightest difficulty - not in this lifetime, not in a previous one, and not in his original life over 3,000 years ago.

I don't understand this either as I am a firm believer in karma - however: I have noticed, as have many other victims of abuse, that evil people are immune to karma! Evil people appear to be protected by some evil force, they spend their lives harming others, harming nature, doing what they want, taking risks - and getting away with everything! It's against all laws of nature and against all logic - but I have noticed the same with each and every one of my abusers: they get away with anything. They never face justice, they never face the slightest bit of karma.

When I started to notice that, I began to write about that, and suddenly I was absolutely bombarded with other abuse victims reporting exactly the same! Admittedly they were not talking about several lifetimes as not all of them believed in reincarnation, but even just from looking at one lifetime it is obvious that these creatures (evil people, ie abusers) are immune to karma. And I have been watching this for several millenia now!

I wish I knew why this is, and whether such people do eventually have some kind of karma coming back on them, but I have never seen it happening.

You are right, being constantly and incessantly subjected to abuse does deplete one's life force. And indeed I am feeling so so exhausted from it all! Every few days I collapse physically, because my body cannot take any more. It goes without saying that the less life force one has, the weaker the body gets too. I'm of course not a weak person (spiritually I mean) or I would not have survived all this, but I do notice that I feel exhausted. Physically and emotionally. I wish I could have someone to take care of me, to protect me. But this was never granted to me in this lifetime - I have never found friends or a life partner, despite wanting to get married since I was 16, and always having wished for friends.

You mention Buddhist chants and chanting AUM. I don't know much about that I have to admit. I had considered learning a bit about Buddhism and near my city there is a Buddhist monastery that I could go to in order to learn more, but what put me off was the behavior of the monks - ever so often they run around in my city, and they don't behave like monks should! I've noticed some of them looking at me, and I know that some Buddhist monks do misbehave with women! I think that put me off the whole thing. The other thing that put me off it is that, from what I know, Buddhists don't believe in God.

But I would be interested to learn more about the chants that you mention. I know that chants, when chanted in the right intonation, carry energy, positive energy and cleansing energy. And that's exactly what I need!

If you would like to tell me more about this, I would be really happy to learn!

Thank you for your prayers, I really appreciate that!

Take good care,

Ankhesenamun

Ankh Em Ma'at


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