Hello guys. Since quite some time , around 1,5 years, I have a unhealthy obsession that drives me into porn and masturbating. Whenever I try to purify myself and meditate etc... I feel my throat clenching and sometimes make weird noises. Also when I concentrate my willpower my head starts shaking left and right really strong. Some time ago I had a dream where I don't know if It's a dream where I was in my bed couldn't move and heard a voice say "you belong to me"
I have never had any satanistic activity , oujiboards or prayed to evil or something like that.
My father may very possibly be possessed by a demon as he hates anything in connection to the church doesn't believe in god and gets headache from sage and the like. Maybe his demons try or have attacked me?
If you believe you are, then you may well be. You need to be closing down your chakras each night. Say in Jesus's Christ's name three times to leave you. I don't think you should be judging your father, per say. Just because if he does not believe in a faith, it does not mean he is dark. If you feel that you are using bad practices into pleasuring yourself then do two things. Either stop the practice or heal from the guilt of pleasuring yourself. There is nothing bad doing this. hope that helps you.